AlphaBetaComma.. et cetera.
this just me, with my own brain and thought.
Love hiking, art, music, fashion, books, foods and films. Trying to be a good student, child and besties for everyone.
walking, seeing and learning. that's it!
Dammit. Crying at this time right after seeing Dona Muramatsu eats Seedless Grapes.
A week before Mom went to the hospital, gettin comma, she asks me to find some seedless grapes but I couldn’t find it because I must go to the Bigger Fruit Market or a Supermarket. She insisted me to go and I really have to got that grapes, but I refused her. I don’t wanna leave her for such a long time only to find seedless grapes.
Now, I regret it so much.
I miss you, Mom.
I am sorry I couldn’t give you all you want. That seedless grapes always remind me of you.
Mom. I love you so much.
I’m sorry mom…
I’m still feeling sorry cause I still couldn’t making you happy until today.
January 19, 2018 00.41
I’m sad.
I’m broken.
I’m tired.
I’m scared.
I’m fucked up.
I’m a trash.
I’m nothing compared anyone.
I’m a hole.
A living hole.
Useless.
Sad.
Really sad.
#onetwentytwoTHOUGHTS
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What do you expect.
What do you expect from someone who can’t even sleep at night, wake up at noon because she’s starving like hell.
What do you expect from someone who can’t even turn off every light in her home or turning of the Tv at night just because she don’t wanna feel that hollow feelings after….. ya.. you know.
No, you don’t expect anything.
She must be cured.
She must leave faraway.
She must be crying somewhere right now.
Would you mind to help?
No, you don’t.
